I'm just beginning to realise that one of my friends' tendency to never be free for any sort of social activity has been affecting me a great deal more than I thought. Somehow I'm caught between the frustration of always being turned down by her (for meetings/lunches) and the wish to at least spend some free time with her.

I feel rejected when someone turns down one of my invitations for lunch/a show/a visit to somewhere. I mean, I can understand perfectly if it's a matter of parental dissent, but some part of my brain can't. I just get angry and frustrated. I begin to fear asking at all because there's something like a 70% chance the answer will be no.

That's happened twice in the last two days and somehow it's really getting to me.