I feel stranded. Maybe it's that all my friends are leaving and I'm trying too hard to push my uni friends away for fear that they'll become too close and I'm feeling nothing but lonely. I'm afraid that my present friends will forget me. Mortally afraid, even. With my uni friends I'll have to go through the long process of winning their trust again and I didn't have a good start.

I really just want someone to care about my writing, my stories, my characters...which is a ridiculous desire but well? That's what I live for now. I chose my current uni course because of those things. I live for it now. If people stop caring...then everything was for nothing...