the worst thing is

(...i can't tell anyone.)

I just realised how much of my life I just screwed up. What a big mess I've just gotten myself into. Oh God...... I can't believe how sickened I feel at the mistakes I've been making in the past weeks. How completely blind I was to the things I was doing wrong.

I can't believe how sickened I feel that I'm calling them mistakes. But I know I did it wrong. I did everything wrong.

I hope no assumptions have been made. I hope waiting silently isn't the only escape. I hope it's just a passing thing.

I hope I don't hurt anyone.