sigh, I make myself victim again

I get so angry listening, sometimes. I cannot be explicit because I know I may be wrong, but are you trying to outdo me on the grounds I chose? Punch a hole in my pride, the very highest pride of mine? Can I not enjoy a victory without anyone trying to drag me down? Must there always be people trying to best me?

I'm sorry for assuming I am a victim in every case but it is hard for me to see this setup in any other way.

Can I never rest quiet?