What's wrong with me? What am I doing with my life that's wrong? I keep getting worse and worse. I keep messing important things up. I keep letting myself fall prey to my own destructive reasoning. When can I stop being like that? Can I stop being like that? Why won't someone just TELL me already--why can I never do anything right, why is it so easy to hate me, why am I LIKE THIS? I don't want to be this person. I hate who I am. I know I'm not supposed to think this way, but I just, plain, downright hate myself!

I can't wait to die. I hope I die unnaturally, soon. I hope it is by weapon, or by poison, or by suffocation. I don't want this life. I hate it.